This posting here (in this blog) is the very first time I am wearing my heart on my sleeve in 'public sphere'. I am extracting my thots and feelings right out from my heart and into the public sphere of the internet.
There are TWO gals that I really really care about.
Girl Friend Number One:
Olive: She is my current girl friend. Although she too a loud mouth and given to "suaning" me, I know that in the deepest recesses of her heart, she cares deeply for me. I dare say that she loves me. Okay, we know from reading my past posting here that she is not exactly beautiful - not ugly, just plain.
Girl Friend (Potentially) Number Two:
Sammi: Although we are not officially an item yet - I am confident that she and I will develop some kind of relationship. I just know it from my pure gut, visceral feeling and intuition. Also my heart tells me that it is to be.
I have chronicled how my lust had turned into a massive crush on Sammi and evolving into ~ perhaps ~ love).
Chronicles of Sammi - whom I termed as my "real life Fantasy Gal" in a sex website. (I am considering on whether to post a link for the Full story - from how I accidently saw her making love with her then boy friend, to my mini flirtations with her and subsequently the falling into "like". From Lust to Like to (perhaps) Love. I hesitate because there are some sexy pics of sammi there - face obscure so no one would recognise her)
Now Sammi is a different league. She is voluptous and extremely sensual. How can Sammi not be? Afterall she is "body model". What set her apart is not her physical attributes. It is her kind and gentle soul. For a person who is accustomed to having truck loads of men fawning and chasing after her, she remained truly humble and sweet. I am not lying when I say tat she is the most gentle soul i know (not to mentioned the prettiest and sexiest person I ever known in real life).
Now don't get me wrong .... I am no saint. If Sammi wants me - I am gladly hers..... (but there is a big "BUT") ... but I also do care and love Olive too!
Remember the song: "The One You Love"
Words & Lyrics to the Song (taken from Youtube)
Olive represents the "One Who Loves You" whereas Sammi is the "One You Love" .....
I know that I cannot "straddle two ships" and must give up one of them in order to be fair.
Sammi and myself are not a couple yet. In a 'rational' world, I should just nip the problem in the bud and proceed no further. But then again - how can that be. The "what if" and realization of an ultimate fantasy ~ even though it may hurt me (and perhaps Olive) are compelling pulls.
But mostly, it is Sammi herself (intrinsically the person) that draws me to her. It like being caught up in a situation of being in a relationship when someone "perfect" comes along. Do you stay contented or do you risk all - for that chance (albeit however small) for something special.
I admit that I do not have the answer presently - but I know what my heart (and loins) wants - and that is sammi.
(Stay Tune Folks)
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